It's days like today that make me think I am lying to myself. Maybe I'm not better. Maybe I'm not stronger. Maybe I'll never be back to myself.
It seems like no matter how hard I try to switch back into the girl I used to be, I can't. I just get further away from her. I want to remember what it's like to fall asleep feeling excited for tomorrow. I want to remember what's it's like to stay up as late as possible because I don't want my good day to end. Those feelings are so far away for me. They start to get closer, but only to tease me. Then, it's like they just slip through my fingers and disappear again. Some days, it's like I can actually feel myself breaking even more. That happens whenever someone else gives up on me. I shouldn't need the support of others, but I do. I don't want to be the only one believing in me. Yet, with every passing day, that becomes a little more true.
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