It's been a while, but I finally had a panic attack again. I am literally freaking out over things that I know are stupid. The only problem is that I can't stop myself from feeling this way.
Today, I realized that there are two parts of me. The first and most important part is who I really am. The second part is my anxiety. Okay, let me explain. I know that I'm being irrational, but my anxiety does not. The anxiety thinks that it's okay to worry about stupid things, like it's something that it should be doing. However, the person that I am feels differently. I'm worrying about things that make no difference or don't require concern. Even still, knowing that I'm acting irrational does not always allow me to just become rational.
Everyone I know keeps telling me that I'm getting better at controlling my panic attacks or talking myself down from them. I like to believe this, but I'm not entirely sure. It feels like I get worried about being worried in the first place and I only end up making it worse for myself.
Clearly, I have to keep working at this. Sometimes, I hope that by posting all of my struggles, someone else out there will stumble upon my entries and realize that they are not alone. I like to believe that I am not the only one with kind of problem and I really hope that by writing, I am making it easier for another person.
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