I suppose it is normal to wake up and feel off. I suppose every once in a while I am going to have a sad sort of day. I suppose it is okay. Yet, I wonder what it is that caused me to wake up feeling anxious. I woke up strangely early considering I have nothing to do today and I am still incredibly tired. My heart is beating a little too hard and my hands will not stop shaking. I have this weird need to not be alone, but I seriously do not want to talk. I would just like someone to sit next to me, be with me through this. It's been a fairly long time (at least compared to how often I used to be anxious) since the last time I was anxious enough to have it interfere with my day. It feels like a huge setback. I just want to get over this ridiculous anxiety problem that I have, but no matter how hard I work, it creeps back into my life.
So, as I sit here I am wondering, "What will help me to feel better? How can I move past this?" Sometimes, I worry that I require more love and support than people are prepared to give. It is the worst feeling having to ask someone to come sit with me or to go for a walk with me. I get worried that I am going to run out of favors and people will finally start telling me "no." So instead, I plan to hide and wait for the anxiety to pass me by.
I think sometimes those are the moments, you allow yourself to reach out to others...and then other times, it's a time to go inward.
ReplyDeleteMaybe that means just sitting or possibly working on a hobby, something you love or want to learn to do.
And then you come out on the other side feeling that sigh of relief and rockin it out:)) feel better soon.
Thank you so much for the support. You have no idea how much your comment has made me smile!
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