Sometimes I struggle to see the good in the world... I think most people probably know that about me by now. I realize that good is out there; I just don't always see it. The truth is that I'm okay with not being perfect. I'm working to make peace with my shortcomings. I'm fighting to be strong.
Still, on this day, I am reminding myself to count my blessings. Maybe we can say that I'm trying a new technique. Instead of giving into my anxiety, I am standing up to it. Will it work? I have no idea. I hope it does because battling my nerves for the past week is taking a toll on me. Frankly, I am tired... tired of hurting, tired of wanting to be "normal", tired of waiting for it to get better.
So instead of waiting, I am going to remind myself what is going well in my life. I am going to be grateful for all the wonderful people who have helped me become who I am. I am going to laugh with my friends and visit with my family. I am going to enjoy the weather, eat apples, and drink tea. Yes, I am going to force myself to be happy. It takes too much energy otherwise.
So, in this search for happiness, I am going to try to look at the happy things I already have!
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