Another Month Slips Away

Once again, I am surprised by how quickly the time has flown. It was a month ago that I posted about the heart-breaking rejection I received from my dream job. Since that time, I haven't posted anything. As I sit here staring at my blank computer screen, I wonder why the words aren't flowing from my finger tips the way that they used to...

I found today to be surprisingly challenging. Nothing in particular happened to make it difficult; it just was. I have been trying to figure out what it is that is bothering me. Still, I don't have an answer. Instead, I am sitting in a world of anxiety and looking for an escape. I know that it is just a matter of time before things get better, but waiting is the worse part. I am reminding myself that I used to go months feeling like this just for a day of relief. Now, I have months of happiness with a few random days of anxiety. Overall, it is a drastic improvement. Even though, in this moment, I do not feel "improved".