Recently, I have not been grateful. I know that I haven't. I work 5 days a week. The other two days, I was taking a class. My "free time" only exists when I am asleep. My whole body hurts on a regular basis, I live at home for the first time in a year but never see my family, fun things only happen at the cost of not sleeping. This is far from the summer that I had in mind. I'm doing things I need to be doing, but never have time for the things I want to be doing.
So, I am working to change the way I am looking at this summer. It isn't always easy. I am quick to get frustrated when I miss out on something fun, or when my family gets mad that I'm not contributing around the house. Yet, I am constantly reminding myself that by working so much now, I won't need to work during my senior year. When I do find time to catch up with a friend, I enjoy every second of it, and I look forward to late night phone calls that result in lots of giggles.
This is not the way I want to spend my summer. Since this is the way that my summer is going to be spent, I have two choice. I can either be mad, tired, annoyed, and feel sorry for myself OR I can take the few good things, and really appreciate them.
Needless to say, I am trying to appreciate the good things, no matter how few and far between. I am lucky that working hard for 4 months means enjoying 8 work-free months of college. I am lucky that my friends stay up late to laugh with me when I finally get off work. I am lucky that my family tries to work around my schedule so that I can see them now and then. While, I am unhappy with a lot about this summer, I still have things to appreciate. I believe that finding these small things to be grateful for, even in the midst of a poor situation, will truly contribute to your overall happiness.
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