Do Anything

After a ridiculous day, today seemed impossible. I didn't want to talk because I wasn't sure I would like what I heard. I didn't want to get up because I didn't think I'd like what I'd see. I wanted to sit on couch and wait for the day to move by. Instead, my sister dragged me away, literally forced me to shower and took me to lunch. It was hardly worth the effort of moving. Yet, I feel better. I feel accomplished. I still cried a bit today and moped around more than necessary, but with my sister's help, the day didn't totally pass me by. I am also realizing that I am in control. I have ups and downs but ultimately how the day goes is my choice. Sometimes it's easy to control and sometimes it takes work. Tears aren't always a bad thing. Crying is a huge release.. of angry, hurt, and sadness. The more I cry, the more I move on. I can literally feel myself letting go. I might need to cry a million more times before I am finally able to let go of all that has happened, but every day, I get closer. I know that happiness is not that far away. All i need to do is find the strong girl I used to be. The rest will fall into place.