My life has changed. I have changed. I will never again be that shy girl in the back of the classroom. I won't wait to be approached. I refuse to hesitate when asking for help. I am determined to use the voice I was given to demand the life I deserve. I stand up for myself. I make my own fun. I take responsibility for my own happiness.
Yet, right now, I am frozen. I'm right in the middle of a cross road. I have two choices: left or right. Either, I let my heart win or I let my protective side take over. Usually, I believe in taking risks when it comes to love. You might fall flat on your face, but those few seconds that you spend in the air are the most thrilling thing you'll ever experience. My problem is that I've been right here before and I already know how bad the landing will hurt.
I am left with one major question: Is it possible to make a relationship seriously work after a significant break up? After watching years of hard work tossed aside in a matter of days, I worry that it's too easy for him to leave when things get hard. Yet, I believe I am worth more than that. I believe he's coming back because he sees it, too. He has said all the right things, and still, I wonder. I don't want that doubt lingering in the back of my mind, always wondering when he's going to walk out again. Is it possible to rebuild that trust and security? Or, is it really better to be safe than sorry?
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