Ever have one of those days when you are just dying for a hug? When the only thing you want is to feel another person next to you? When you just need to know that you aren't facing the world alone? This is exactly how I feel right now. I would give anything for someone to come in and tell me that it's okay to get lonely, but that I am not alone.
It's been a long time since I let the tears fall like this. I didn't even realize how sad I was until I noticed that my face was soaking wet. For this one second, I am feeling defeated. I thought that I had conquered my fears, faced my anxiety, and was ready to move on with my life. Now, I am not so sure. The fact that I started crying after only 6 hours alone really worries me. I thought that I was stronger than this. I thought that I could take care of myself. But-- given how I feel right now, maybe I still need someone to help me.
Facing the world alone is a scary thing to do. It is something that I hope I never have to do. I think it is for this reason that I believe so strongly in love. Just knowing that you have someone there to love you, to remind you that you're strong, to help you up when you fall is such a powerful thing. These people come in all different shapes and sizes. They are our friends, brothers, sisters, parents, lovers. Even though I am so lonely right now, I keep reminding myself that I have people who love me. I have people who would do anything to support me. I am lonely, but I am not alone.
Though it's a sucky place to be, there's so much strength in this post. You may be alone at times, but not to be lonely--thats an awesome place to be. There's wisdom to this place. Doesn't stop the tears...but it's a release to get on...BIG HUGS TO YOU!!
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