Two for One!

Topic One: Such a big fear.
I am getting closer and closer to student teaching. As summer begins to end, I am getting more and more nervous about student teaching. I'm not actually worried about being the classroom. I know that I can handle that part. I've been working hard, learning lots, and practicing speaking in front of groups. No, that's not the problem. I am worried about how much time I am going to have for myself. I am worried that between the lesson planning and grading, I won't have enough time to do the things I love or see the people I want to spend time with. I'm scared to be alone. I know that it is kind of an irrational fear but it's a fear nonetheless.
The problem is that in order to overcome my fear of being alone, I need to be alone. Yet, that means opening myself up to possibly losing some friendships. I think that I'm worried about student teaching because I feel that on top of the added stress from working, I'll be worrying about what I'm missing out on. Even so, I know this is something that I need to do if I am ever going to move forward with my career. With any luck, my friends will love and support me enough to stand by while I work through this time in my life. (But--- sometimes, I'm worried that I've used up all the support my friends had to give...)

Topic Two: Repercussions
Today, I've realized the importance of watching what you say. Sometimes, even a good humored joke can back-fire. I am the type of person who usually knows when I've done something wrong or when I've hurt someone's feelings. After joking with a friend from work, everyone (including the managers) call this boy "snuggle bug". He has a great sense of humor and he jokes right back. I didn't think much of it until he told me that his ex-girlfriend called him that and he was really hurt when they broke up. It doesn't seems to bother him, but I can only imagine how it might feel to hear that all the time if you are still trying to heal. I think this is a pretty decent lesson for me to be learning. Kind intentions don't always matter, because words (jokes included) can hurt.