Life does not slow down just because you want it to... In fact, it probably moves faster. This is something that as time goes on, I am determining to be more true. Life does not cut you a break just because you're tired. It does not leave you alone when you are too stressed out to function. I never used to believe in the saying "when it rains, it pours," but it is absolutely the truth. I literally feel like Humpty Dumpty. Every time I start to put myself back together, someone comes and pushes me off the freaking wall!
My academic life has drastically picked up over the last week with two projects, and reading an entire 400 page novel in the next 4 days. This does not include my regular workload, helping organize a water polo tournament on campus, and going to observe at a local high school. On top of that, my social life has gone crazy. Last night, I received a text message from my former boyfriend. He asked if we could work on a friendship. Seeing as my last post was about how exactly one month had passed since we last spoke, I couldn't help but think... "oh, the irony."
At first, I was almost excited. I had lost my best friend in the most abrupt manner, and the thought of having him back actually made me smile. Then, reality set in. I realized exactly what he had put me through. One week before moving back to the scariest place I had ever lived, he left. The most important boy in my life walked out on me because it was easier for him. I can't help but wondering if he even considered what that choice was going to do to me. I spent so much time putting myself out there and trying to make it work, only to be shot down. So, I finally got strong, turned myself around, and started down an alright path.
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