Wicked Wednesday!

I think it is safe to say that at some point or another, we have all felt like this! Each and everyone of us has had our heart broken, toyed with, and played. When a couple breaks up, your own heart goes out to them.. at least, mine does. I have been oversensitive the past few weeks after having my former boyfriend change his mind 3 times about our relationship status, only to arrive back at the original answer of single.
I've always been a bit of a control freak. By that, I mean, I am a big fan of rules. Don't get me wrong, I do not like being told what to do, but I do like knowing is allowed and acceptable. Even more, I like being in control within that confined area. The rules make me feel safe. It has been said that boundaries fence you in, but I like being fenced in. Here I am in my own little world of security, where no one can touch me unless I allow it, and where I can't get in trouble unless I decide to break a rule. I guess it just makes life simple. I can stop worry about the "what if" moments and live... safe within my rule defined space.
See, for me, the world is black and white. Clearly, gray exists but I choose not to exist within that area. It makes no sense to me because it's the space that the rules don't apply. There are no right answers when you're in the gray, just options. That's kind of how breakups are. There is no rule book for how to breakup or move on. The choices are endless. Obviously, some are more mature than others, but the possibility for carrying out one choice over the other is completely equal.
While I am deciding to take a mature route by simply being polite at any encounter but having no contact other than the casual crossing of paths, I couldn't help but plot what my immature side might do. Even though, I will never carry out any part of my plan, it was a huge release to consider. Really, I suggest trying it. (Just don't follow through; you will regret it later)
Basically, I found these awesome cards at a local store. The outside contained the necessary message and the inside simply said, "That's all." How great would it be to deliver one of these every day until you felt better? At the very least, my (no longer) significant other would know how deeply he hurt me.

Check out more card options on their site, "That's all greetings". These were just a few of my favorites! Breaking up is not easy. It's not fun. It's hard to let go of someone who was once important, and even harder to let go of someone who is still important. Sometimes it's not up to you though. Sometimes all you can do is learn to cope and move on, no matter how impossible it seems.