It's Time to Let Life In

My last week in Ann Arbor will be nothing but fun. My goal is to laugh and play as much as possible. I am celebrating a successful school year. Grades are kind of irrelevant to me right now. More, I am celebrating my successes as a person. I suffered an insane amount last year and built myself back up from nothing. I watched as my whole world crumbled to the ground, but I kept moving forward. Still, I wonder what people think when they hear my story. The problem is that it was a secret for so long that I actually don't know how to do the tale justice. Looking back on a previous post, I noticed that I had written...

"My scars are very real. They are hidden far beneath my skin, in places you will never be able to see. But, they are there and they hurt."

With every passing day, those scars are healing. They will never disappear completely but soon enough, I know that they won't be a battle. I am learning that I am the only one who is going to lose if I block out the world. It is for this reason that I am forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone. When I think about the last couple weeks, I have done some really cool things. I went to a drag queen show, sang karaoke, played trivia. If I am learning anything right now, it is that life is only as great as you make it. Until I figure out how to be happy with myself, no one else is ever going to be happy with me. I know I have a lot to offer the world... it's just a matter of figuring out what it is.