I prided myself on being blunt, up front, and "in your face". I believed that I would never let another person push me around, tell me what to do, or break me. After all I've been through, I am trying to bury my heart down deep enough that it will never be shattered again.
I have been spending my last few weeks of school searching for happiness... searching for myself. I go out with my friends every Thursday. It is the most fun I've had all year. I've met some decent people along the way and I've started to put myself out there again. So far, I have found that the fastest way right out of my life is to try to control me. There is nothing that I hate more than being told what to do, who I'm allowed to hang out with, and when I am supposed to respond to a text message. This is my deal-breaker. I am a smart, mature, kind young lady. I will love and respect you, but I ask that you give me the same in return. The second that you take away my choices, I will already be halfway out the door.
We all have our "thing", our insecurity, our fear. Mine is clearly the fear of losing my voice, and by default, myself. Whether it comes to my friendships or my relationships, I will not allow someone to take control of my life for me. There is no reason to force myself to deal with unnecessary stress of fighting to be heard. I tell myself on a daily basis that I am something worth having around and I deserve to be surrounded by people to see that about me. My life is slowly climbing back uphill now that I am demanding the treatment that I deserve. So, here is what I am saying... find your "thing". Figure out what is the one thing that you cannot live with and don't. Remove it from your life.
Inspired by Your 1 Deal-Breaker
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