A Million Unanswered Questions

I believe in forgiveness. I believe in making mistakes and learning from them. I believe in moving forward. Recently, I have found myself hurt in ways that I don't understand. So many people have walked out of my life and so few of them have walked back in. I wonder how I managed to get myself in this situation. I wonder what I did to deserve losing so many great people. I wonder how to make it all okay again. Yet, I know that I am growing from this.

So here's my question... When is it time to let go? When should you count your losses?

 I used to tell myself that it was okay to not be okay. I used to think that I was struggling so that I could learn to be the strength during someone else's struggle. I used to think that something better was coming my way. Now, I don't know. I want to keep fighting. I want to keep pushing through. But, I don't know how much more fight I have left in me. I am trying to decide if it is time to walk into the next phase of my life. Let go of the past.
Yet, I don't want to. I was happy. I liked the stage I was before. Is that enough? Does that mean that I should wait it out? Or should I keep going forward? What is the right choice? What is best for me?

I want happiness. I want to smile. I want to laugh. I want to love. When will that happen again for me?